♥It was never easy ;

Thank you so much, Derek Chan! :D

Hello everyone, i'm back. :)
As my fucking bitch told me to get back and update. Hehe!
Thanks god, it's not the end of my life yet.
I met this guy named Derek Chan, he's just as black as those indian freak.
But without fail, he treated me really well.
And that's whereby our love began.
I can't explain out what he did for the sake of me.
But it's alot that you can't even imagine.
I'm abit lazy today, continue more the next time alright? :P

♥ wishes ;
Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I did told myself, repeating to stop missing or loving you.
I missed you every moment whenever i close my eyes.
I dreamt about how sweet you were before, whenever i'm asleep.
I looked at you with a smile on my face.
I really miss the way you held my hand tight enough,
and the way you're being so caring.
I did everything, i could. I did tried to hold you back...
However, i thought it wasn't for long. I'm still able to hold my tears.
But i can't be able to hold your heart, telling you how much i need you.
I hold back my heart, telling myself that you aren't my everything.
Even i tried so hard, why it is that i still can't be able to forget you?
I found out that i really want you to be part of my life.
But never did i know it's all too late.
If i aren't your sister's friend, and you aren't your sister's brother.
Will we still get to know each other?
Will our ending be it this way?
I'm sorry.. I thought that i'm done,
but actually, my heart still beats for you.
I acted like i don't really care, but actually inside i'm still wanting to hear some news from you.
Till now, few months back...
Don't tell me, you've already forget everything about me?
If you're able to forget, i'm sorry, i can't be able to do so...
I'm letting my heart out for today.
Why it is so unfair to me? Whenever i open my heart for that person.
But never hell did i know, i'm only getting myself more tired?
I'm sick, i'm tired, i'm fainting.
How i wish i could still be lying onto your shoulder..
Why i'm still being so stubborn?
I really want and wish to forget you...
And i failed very badly..
Can anyone tell me how and what should i do now? :(

Love sick;
The problem doesn't lies with me,
and it doesn't lies with you,
but it lies in between us;

♥ wishes ;
Tuesday, June 07, 2011