♥It was never easy ;

♥ I love you my dearest lucky! :)

Looking through those things that i've blogged,

reminds me of how sweet you could be.

4/1- silly me, have started falling in love with you. :)

4/13- you're the third one who wished me happy birthday.

Asking me over to your house, but i've something on. :o

4/14- i'm missing you badly like some fucktard. :@

4/19- my girlfriends tried to cheer me up, but still i'm missing you badly. :(

4/22- went over there again, this time, i cried very badly because i fucking miss you. :'(

4/24- knowing that you were sick, was wondering how are you doing already? =/

4/28- it was a raining day, hoping to receive your raining day message, but it wasn't you.

But finally we texted lately. :)

5/1- we have been texting lately, like mostly everyday!

And also we chatted every night plus you said that you misses me! :D

5/3- thank you for cheering me up when i'm very down. :)

5/8- you came down to find me!

I fucking fly up high into the sky! :D

5/10- broke down when i saw those messages of yours. :(

5/11/12 - we've talked things out. Loveyou, dyyy! :)

5/13- you're the one that taught me how to love,

saying that you misses me very much.

I'm very very happy when i hear it from you at that moment! :D

5/18- i'm very upset, and i flows my tears very badly because of you again.

Too tired of loving you already. :'(

5/25- after my work early in the morning, was very tired but still i went to meet you.

After breakfast you fetched me home with a hug and kiss. :D

5/29- you ended your probation and you promised me to bring me out during the night! :)

6/1- we quarreled very badly because you saw those messages.

But i swear, i've never do such a thing like this.

Never did i know that it was my very last time for meeting you. :'(

6/8- was really very upset and tears is everywhere in my eyes!

So i've expressed my feelings here. :'(

6/15- went drinking because i misses you alot.

And almost cry out again. :(

6/29- soon to get over you,

but tears coming out from my eyes when i talked about you once again. :(

7/13- i've made up my mind and intend to give up on you already.

Telling myself that i'll keep you into my memories. <3

8/23- you came back in contact with me!

Was feeling happy and was kinda sad too? =/

8/31- and finally we're back together! :D

9/31 - yes, it's a month that we've broken up once again!

Things just doesn't work out, didn't know that you and her can be so close? :'(

10/1- went drinking every now and then, in order to made myself drunk. :(

Till today, i'm still missing you very badlyyyyy!

Telling myself of what should i do to keep you out of my mind?

It's already six to seven months and so many tears that i've shed because of you.

Didn't know that i was hurt so much when i'm with you,

but never did i regret that i've met you.

Most of all, i've never hate you before.

It's hard to forget about all this memory that i once had it with you.

Maybe this was really meant to be, and so i'd never go across to it again.

♥ wishes ;
Friday, October 30, 2009

♥Debi&Weilin♥

I can swear, it isn't easy to have trust even on our sistership or friendship.

But we had never fails to try our best.

Maybe or perhaps it isn't our very best still?

But we're still going on and on and it could be even forever.

Sistership isn't that easy to build trust, love, care and many more.

You often used a hug and said that you misses us very much,

but everything could fucking been seen out.

Isn't it like so fake?!

Who the hell willing to care, you would unable to be yourself as well.

Even how hard you tried, it isn't you at all.

Use your heart and feel everything, isn't it the most wonderful thing in life?

I would never fucking care about you anymore.

Be whatever shit you wanted to be, act whatever ass you wanted to.

Get the fuck out of me, because i'm gonna fuck you thousands or even millions up and down!

Shitttttttttt, my life still hasn't been changing.

What's even worse is, the mother fucker! :)

Nb nb! Boredom kills me as well.

Don't act like you're one, because you aren't at all.

It pissed me off when i see your lj face. Shit you man! :)

Brother is going in ns real soon, and once he get in there, he'll be dead!

I'm getting lazy to blog about more,

been busy outing, drinking and smoking, thats all i could say.

My poor bestfriend, andylaujunhao!

Get well soon! <3

♥ wishes ;
Sunday, October 25, 2009

Finally back to blogging!

It's a very long time while i blogged, and yes, i knew it.

Happened alot of things through for the past one month.

Been very busy with my work, it's very tiring.

But without any chioce i'll still have to work.

Recently became lasy and went to caribbean pub for drinking while i'm working.

Been drinking and smoking most of my time now. =/

It sucks, but i couldn't stop myself.

Well, hopefully no one find me out there.

Yes, it's also reaching a month when we've broken up.

Broken up, and feeling has faded for you.

Indeed it's a good thing to me.

Loving you more, will only hurt me more.

Most of it, loving you was never easy for me.

I'm seriously lost for words to say.

Two are coming after me now, didn't know who will be better.

But i'll choose none of it, i could say.

Fall for you, and yes, it's true.

I just hate liars, and why must you lie to me?

Am i a very good person for you to lie?

This question will never get my mind right.

I felt a little empty when i couldn't get to see you.

When i couldn't hear you calling me, when i couldn't hear your voice.

Always dream of you,

that you're standing right infront of me,

telling me all those jokes and craps that you often does.

Now, i'm trying to stop myself.

I couldn't fall in love with you, and i seriously can't!

I should be very awake by now,

i know we'd never turns out right no matter how we try.

Maybe, a little bit longer and i'll forget you...

Oh, my beloved mummy birthday is coming soon!

Thinking that what should i give her as a present?

Well, perhaps a kiss will do. :P

I shall try to control myself starting from now,

i can't go for drinking when i'm suppose to be working! =/

Gotta change my life man!

Fuck, i'm so in a pain now, didn't know what's wrong. =="

Hopefully, it does recover later.

♥Forget you is hard, but loving you may be harder;

I couldn't stop myself, but i've got to;

♥ wishes ;
Thursday, October 01, 2009