I'm back to blog now, my mood wasn't right.
I felt very moody, because of you.
Everywhere i looked, there's always your shadow.
I don't want to live with any shadow around me, but why?!
After this few days of thinking, i think i really have to accept the reality.
I think, i like you. Why can't i just ease you from my mind or whatever?
Why must there always a shadow of you?!
I think about you all day long, i want to ease you out of my life.
But it seems like i can't ease you,
what can i really do to ease you out of my mind?
The reality can really kill me like never before.
I don't there to face my reality and i kept lieing to myself, that i can forget you easily.
But no, i can't and i really can't!
If i could made a wish, and the first thing that i would wish to is "To get you out of my mind!"
My second wish was, "To live happily without any fallen!"
And my last and the third wish was,
"To be happy everyday and don't be so moody!"
I'm trying to lie to myself, all this wishes is so impossible to be real.
I guess, it would never happen forever. :(
Seriously, why must there be reality?
Some reality really broke me down deeply and i can't really go on with my life.
It took more than one month to recover every of my sadness reality.
It really hurts alot, i've tried to be as strong as i could, i really wish to break down once again.
I finally met yiling, lihui and peiling today, and yiling passed me the tube.
It was nice larh, i like alot. :D