Wondering of the feelings that you wasn't around with me.
Regreting of having the things that i really wanted.
The feelings of being lonelyness that no one seems to know.
You may thinks that, i'm being cheerup.
But truefully, it doesn't seems to be.
I tried and tried, being what i really wanna be.
I've fail of trying it.
To face any of the relationships, i'm a loser to it.
I just doesn't know.
This kind of feelings is really fucked me up.
I doesn't know, what i really wanted.
On one will seems to know, how am i feeling right now.
Now it is all useless to me, i really doesn't want anything right now.
I already have failed from the top to the very bottom.
Love really kills me deeply inside my heart.
Even if it really does recover.
There is always a scar on it, that doesn't seems to recover forever.
Even how hard to tried.
No one will seems to know what i really wanted.
But just me, i'm totally in a lost!
I hate myself!
